time and time again

A momentarily pause from parch of words.
A way to say I am having a short break. I have no idea why i love to press enter when i type and it ends up no paragraphing and only sentences and sentences.


usually blogging kept my head held high.. my adrenaline boosted ... my soul keep intact..
i love writing something ranging from trash to 'recycled stuff'

meaning i like to repeat trash writing.

So , what comes in my mind will surely decorate this blog as in to make the word 'filling in' sounds better.

I love this song
wait a moment.! I am copying the lyric . ( ish.. why on earth do i love to type enter)

argh..
it sang by jeremy camp! beautiful one


Wonderful, so wonderful
Is your unfailing love
Your cross has spoken mercy over me
No eye has seen no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
How glorious, how beautiful you are.
Beautiful one I loveBeautiful one
I adore
Beautiful one
my soul must sing.
Powerful so powerful
Your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see (beautiful)
The beauty of your majesty
Awakes my heart to see
How marvelous how wonderful you are.
Beautiful one
I love Beautiful one
I adoreBeautiful one
my soul must sing
Beautiful one I love youBeautiful one
I adoreBeautiful one
my soul must sing.
You opened my eyes to your wonders
anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on Earth is as beautiful as you (Jesus)
You opened my eyes to your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on Earth is as beautiful as you.
Beautiful one I love you
Beautiful one I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing
Beautiful one I love you
Beautiful one I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing.
And you opened my eyes to your wonders anew
You captured my heart with this love
Because nothing on earth is as beautiful as you.
My soul, my soul must sing,
My soul, my soul must sing,My soul, my soul must sing,Beautiful One.



very messy ! the lyric arrangement ..
argh. lazy to scrutinise it properly.
lazy ..



I am definitely happy and truly surprised when someone unexpected tag along today speciality.
It is really enlightening to have her to join along.
really. more to come in near future.

however, times really flow.
it chimes every hour .
it tells us that
we are growing
here an there.
are we?
those 's not becuz they are just plain lazy as me!
we take things for granted. and surprising it always stands on our side.
never did we know those have been squeezing it in and out are already a master of time realms.
we are just the watcher of the passing.

we are just a bunch of losers.


stop it !!! i am degradin myself .

down
down
down
down
down
a way to descibe my situation.
lousy bum


argh,. lazy to write more.


kerana pasrah tak terhingga~

I guess that not many of peers have the initiative to just giev a piece of their mind in blogging.
Lay down a part of their life in this seems hard.
just hard.

But i think I might as well stop blogging cause I really do not know what to write and I am not the blogger type of guy.
people decorate their blog.

I decorate only my mind to write a piece.
friends write splendid piece
I wrote a piece none better than just a kindergarden set of ABC and D!
ar.... still got 7 days left to final.
and yet, I am gifted with this sudden mood to update it

I need to study and i need to push harder and yet i push back reluctant to give to the insurmountable task and tasks to study ..
books an books to revise..and i care is whether i have revise facebook thorougha n thorough.


this is cursed.! damnitt!!!

today , I wrote a phrase .. a malay phrase . it 's been ages since i even get hold of malay literacy. and i brave myself to write a sentence .


' kusangka kelobak sinar, nur cahaya sisian. tak disangka kelabu yang tiba'

it is been long time , my dear Malay.

and i think I fit well in that phrase.




i think i need to stop writing now,

need to return
God bless and cheers!

session 1

Session 1 started on Monday awhile ago.Now, session 3 seems to drag me further and further away from the blurrish of Me . I guess I took the everything for granted. Not even a sense of appreciation for that person. stubborn enough to say I know more than less of things that i thought i knew.

I thought I knew.

However, I am beginning to soften my ego to accept my own mistakes. Yeah , it has been one whole goo goo mistakes that has taken a big toll on me.


great!

hey, thanks keng chai!
God bless!

phew..~~ I am lazy
but i finished a chapter of calculus.

and it definitely drained me in and out.

two weeks more and it is going to start all over again.

it sucks to think about it .~


I read about a article where it really change me in a way.

It shows a land mine and the heading is really ironic.


'And we are scared that we step on Dog's pooh!

nice catch there!~


God bless~

hey!! update update plz

hmph.

I think i have giving myself a little too much a time out from blogging cause it is just not my style to blog.

I am so random and how can i put life , a subjective event in words??

problem and problem again...I think that the way i think make me plagued with problems

let's be random!`i want to list out hmph hmph 13 things i did this few days.

( it has to start from the latest to the past.. we go backward. time travelling. life is really subjective. )

1. yesterday i had a vibe session with my church bo and sis.

a refreshing one as we talk about LOVE and the language of love.

come on! don't get me wrong. it is not the type of love 'who' infatuate and ...... give way to lust and temptation.

no no no~~

it is the power of love . neutral type.where we talked about how do we love our neighbour

Does it make sense yet?

hmph.

2. next, i guess we had an enjoyable time playing lantern .. oops.. it is not playing but holding lantern.

i called out the juniors to go ... the most sensible and laughable one ( who can laugh at almost anything) .. ting heng hee. she is the one who initiate me to update my blog. i guess someone out there does read my blog. I was thinking i might be a bit left out.

my church members came too. wow!!! with a whole bunch of people .

carrissa. philee

anderson.. oh gosh, i miss him. appalled me!

3. i think i am a bit outdated. I am not at all myself when I allow myself to paly dota.

come on!! a decent guy like me playing dota. that is unbelievable. i cant comprehend well the world of creatures and bullies..

eh.. how to stunt ah?

de next moment , I am waiting to be resurrected.

but in short, i guess i love dota in a way.

de way i team up with my beloved James.

the first time , i killed WEE kang 's pet

de first time, i know what is town portal 's scroll!!

de moment i know the boot of travel is a lot better than bot of speed.

so much moments and that y time really flies

come on! now is sat! a slow count down to mon. a day when kbu students stood still~~

4. aha !! this is the best part! it was my friend's birthday . 3 rd oct!

i was trying to figure which day is her birthday!! 2nd or 3rd???

at last, i juz called her to ask her., here is our conversation

lokahawa: hey, long time no see

qi ying: ming chai !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~

lokahawa: wat the heck! hey, wana ask u sth ho???

qi ying: (kind of getting the anticipating climak.. the climbing peak) what is it oh?

lokahawa: when is ur birthday lioa ah??

qi ying cant stop laughing( u know the type when he r face turned really red like chii sause)

qi ying: haiya .. not sincere one. know oledi , still ask.. paiseh la itu!!

lokahawa : i really forgot liao.. haiya.. panyou juo jian jiu lioa.. bu youn jian formal la. ku la gon me tian lo.

qi ying: dun wan.!!! i m angry liao.

lokahawa : nvm lu!! wan present or not@?? panyou reli jou jian jiu lu!!

haha

so, not paiseh to askoohh..

haha.. i guess when we are friends for a long time. i don't hesitate to be v direct. they understand me . and of course, i do too;P

we talked on phone for a hour plus.

hey, i am the one who called ,k!! since she is the birtdhay gal. i don's really mind.

since neway, she is a bit kiamsiat. nvm one la

hha

happy birthday, qi ying!! fu yoh.

5.lastly , hmph.. not forgotten i had an awkward chat with the group of gals.

the main characters that amke the whole world shakes and vibrates!!!!

ainin ...shun ling.. siew wuen .,.. hooiyin..

wait wait!! i shud out shun ling first in de list!! she is ~ well.. dai ka jie ma!!

shun lin ... ainin.. seiw wuen .. hooi ying

no no.. ainin cannot be listed second as she is the smallest and the cutest!! so, put last la..

where shud i put siew wuen!!!???>> any where as long got gap in between la.

hmph. headache ah.. any how la.??

I guess i develop a sense of fear towards shun ling as she is really a pedas !!( not the hot one but reli pedas to the extent it sizzles)

scary!! once she says .. hey, shut up!! i guess i really need to live up to that words .. if not, she will start to transform into .. into ... into.... ni kew!!

siew wuen can be really a bit gila . words cant describe her.. only by seeing her can you realize that not all quiet and decent .. demure type are the type of introvert. she is an extrovert of a false introvert!! just a change of environment .. she breaks her shell!!

hooi yin!! i have no idea how to talk to her. she talked really fast!! faster than ciku and she is definitely tall placing de rest a shame! haha.

ainin. i guess she changes a lot through out the whole year.

lot the very fun and delicate and rough one though... just really seems to be a bit demure . ( i have no other words to describe. mental jammed ") y is she not playing football?? come on. guys bring her along. i think she can make ryan gibbs pee in pant .

they are nice and really nice.. and i always land myself in such a network..

i kind of really find them fascicating in a way!! good jobs , my dear little sisters!!

just // don;t kill me if u all happen to read my post!

hmph..

6. have a chat with raymond . chat about life. that;s what we always talk about or perhaps i always chat about and he always listen patiently! life an life and we start ever nook and cranny of it!

6.i guess nothing special happens in life here and there

i live a typical life like any other boys andn i just think a lot more than any usual guys

i think and i think and i get is more worries.

i pray for a person yesterday and a prayer of blessing for her as well

it is really a good news as moving on really make a big difference.

I am concerned

I guess I end my post with a few words to describe life through and through

Life is really subjective events

planned or random?

It is just a way we interpret life deeper to the root.

when we allow ourself to comprehend life in a more complicated way

the most we get is looking at life and say..

' we are goin round and round'

why don't we start breaking the thick shell enbodying our self

and say' life is simple ! let live and let's liive"

to the fullest!

I am therefore I am

Sometimes, I thought I found the click.
but it is the other way round.

I did not find it but assume that it was there for me all the while.
Kind of being decieved by my naiveness.
By how i grasp life in such immaturity

I am sorry at my own state.I really pity myself this time. I have never look at myself . and that really pull me off the line.

Don't ever fall again into your own trap.I keep doing so without failing.
I fall

I fall
again and again.

and truly ashamed by it.


It is time I piece everything together and leave the stained part away.
and try to look at the brighter side.
no matter how thin the chance may it be
I do not mind much.


I m definite.

let's talk

I appreciate the conversation I had with you
I wish for more
I wish the time would not just tick off so fast.
I wish there would not be BOtherer

How i wish
how i wish it would just a light conversation . how i wish it would not go to the extent of pouring . how i wish i have no s tories to tell .
How i wish

There is no even a inch of regret to say it all.
I really feel very very relieved. living in a cloak of ' no pouring' make me really sick! puring out all. i could go on and on.
Really no remorse


How I wish that our life would be just talking and talking
Then , life would be so challenging. IT is not easy to find the click. it takes more just a random to coher. IT takes more. it is complicated. once found, how easy just to let it flow out, how easy we give in. how easy we lift us high up in felicity.
but who should be the one listening?


HOwever, the reality isn't what we wanna it be.
Having told you all ? would you understand it? We are telling from different thought. Each thought walk us out of our life. WE are sharing and not making stories. IT takes a lot faith to believe. and my faith just keep flowing out. I choose to believe.
or should I just listen ?

How open are you when you tune yourself in.
the frequency is just right. I am not asking for more. CAuse you wanted to say more and just coldn't find the right words. And all i have to do is to read between lines.


Thanks la. I really appreciate you in my life. a part of you reli spice me up.